I'm thinking

about the fog that has settled around us

for the past three days

I'm thinking about grandpa at Saturday's Christmas party

and about Nana's quiet tears as she gave into her enmity

of alzheimers for a rare, brief moment

I'm thinking of Elder Nelson's conference talk that I read this morning

and I'm mulling over the long list of qualities needed

to receive the gift of spiritual discernment:

faith, hope, charity, love, an eye single to the glory of God,

virtue, knowledge, temperance, patience,

brotherly kindness, godliness, humility, diligence

my gift of discernment is a long way off

I'm thinking of our December calendar that says

"Lose Hope and KNOW"

I'm thinking I like that

I'm thinking of hot cocoa

and cinnamon rolls from good friends

and a lazy day with my children

and I'm thinking I like that too