an unwelcome visitor promising to make a grandiose appearance at any given moment. It is being lulled into a state of complacency and then being painfully jarred back into it's reality. It's asking to go home 100 times a day when you're away on vacation. It's refusing to get into a car until you've pulled out of the driveway and then it runs barefoot down the burning pavement after you. It's screaming as high and loud and long as humanly possible. It's telling you it's hard being here on earth. It's asking to die over and over and over again. It is the center of attention, the thing that wakes you in the middle of the night, a suffocating weight. It's a thief.It will eventually go away, just as it always has. I guess I wish there were some kind of schedule, maybe an Angry Autism Calendar of sorts, just so I could see an end . . .
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Wouldn't a calendar be grand! You never know when the "angry" is going to show up. Been there recently and it involved the police again. I keep thinking someday it will get easier. Hugs!
I was waiting for my prescription as I was reading this. The lady asked for my payment and my eyes were all watery from reading this. It makes me so sad.
It would be wonderful for you to have a calendar, wouldn't it? It might make it just a bit easier. I bet Nick would also enjoy that same calendar. He is a generally fun, loving boy who gives the best hugs and a smile to die for, and to hear and see him upset with this unwelcome visitor must be outrageously annoying and physically exhausting for him as well. It isn't something that he or you asked for, but you and him teach me great life lessons each day. I love you both, I hope you know that.
I vote for the calendar! Planning vacations would be so much easier. (Spoken from one who just came home early from vacation due to 500 times of asking to come home.)
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